Pregnancy Dreams

I have been plagued by pregnancy/having children dreams for the past few weeks.

It started with a really vivid dream where I discovered that I was 5 months pregnant while treading in the deep end of a pool. The weightlessness of the water masked the pregnancy until I looked down and saw my very pregnant stomach which led me to surmise that I was indeed pregnant. When I pointed this out to my friend who was also in the pool, she confirmed nonchalantly, “Yes,  you are.” The next scene of the dream was a conversation with my mother and we were trying to calculate when my due date would fall and whether it would interfere with the semester and my teaching schedule. The final scene of the dream was my discovery of the father of the baby (a male from my past) and a feeling of relief. “Oh, it’s you.”

I told my Spiritual Guru about this dream, and she was very intrigued. She spent a lot of time trying to map the timing of my dream pregnancy onto my real life. If I was dream-5 months pregnant, then what was going on in my life 5 months ago? And what will happen in 4 months when I am supposed to give birth to whatever?  According to Spiritual Guru, everything in your dreams is some aspect of you. For example, if someone in my dream had been resisting my pregnancy in some way, that would show that I am at odds with myself over something. In the actual dream, everyone was very accepting, and my only concern was logistical (and I suppose being somewhat surprised that I was so far along without having known it).

I’m not sure if Spiritual Guru is right on this one. I don’t know if the timing means anything. I think she wanted me to see things like this: Five months ago, I was deeply unhappy. In February, I will give birth to happiness. But that seems pretty silly to me.

I have a far more literal interpretation of this dream and the others that I have had recently. And my dramatic conclusion is:  I want to have kids. Ok, so it’s not a spiritually groundbreaking assessment, but I think there is something to it. I have had dreams about pregnancy, adopting children, and babysitting children several times a week for the past few weeks. I think my biological clock is firmly seated in my subconscious.

I am still strongly convinced that a pregnancy right now would be inconvenient and undesirable in my waking life, but try telling that to my dreams.